What's the point?

What's the purpose of this mdk?

No 1 posts here anymore except me and my rubbish, all the depressive stuff. Is it the really the team or me?

Most of the time the depressive me takes control but there are times even i see hope. O well all the drudgery gonna come an end soon, 8 weeks in and out the same old routine for training. Same PT, same stunts, same few people attending, same few people excepted to go missing and continue missing, same few injuries, same few complains, same few surprise( i know its' a paradox) , can't help to feel stagnant.

Times were good when you are fresh and curious to learn, stunts are so much easier to learn and now it's at the stage where newer things are way too hard to learn( not impossible but just hard) and old things are simply too boring. O well that's for me, the rest are doing well, but you can see the stunts are hitting a plateau even with the better players, things are taking longer and longer to master and the feeling is always inconsistent. Maybe should buck up and train hard and work harder to achieve my goals but still my goals are my goals and stunts involve more than 1 person, and there's no happiness by force.

So hard to maintain passion and interest and so hard to train.

Try Not. Do. Or Do not.

I guess i will have to do it.
Lucky i like sour stuff, cos life's a lemon